I am a Dominant, but love being sexually submissive...grin. I have definite sadistic tendencies and totally enjoy causing another discomfort, but also enjoy being tied, and being on the recieving end of a healthy flogging.
So, does this make me a switch? Maybe. Or maybe it just makes me a Dominant who enjoys bottoming occasionally.
Those of you who have known me for a long time, know that at one time I thought of myself as a submissive...only because I had never found an outlet for my Dominance. I had never been encouraged to let myself feel and express the things I kept hidden. You also know that in living 'submissively' outside of the lifestyle, I was a shell of a person, having no idea who or what I was. Once in the lifestyle, I brought that 'submissiveness' with me and just assumed that I was a sub.
As I have grown into my Dominance, I find a lovely Lady exists in me that I always had a sense of, but never knew. A Lady who is still sometimes tentative (A tentative dominant? Yes, it's possible.) but growing nicely.
But does that mean that when one finds his/her Dominance (or conversely I suppose, it could be looked at in the opposite direction, one who originally considered themselves to be Dominant heading into the submissive lifestyle)that he or she leaves everything submissive behind? That all the things once enjoyed about being submissive are forgotten? I don't think so.
I believe if you once enjoyed being tied and flogged, you may still enjoy it even when you also enjoy tying and flogging another. If you once enjoyed pain, you will still enjoy pain. It may be that the circumstances in which you enjoy these things may be different, or the frequency in which you enjoy them may have changed, but I don't think they just turn 'off'.
While I LOVE the sexually dominant role and activities, I get just as hot as ever from a submissive fantasy or act. Could I live as a submissive now? NO, not since the 'dominant' has been released. Just try putting genie back in her bottle! It would be nearly impossible I think. However, would I enjoy being flogged, taken, teased, and possibly serve another occasionally? Most definitely! However, now I would do it on MY terms.
So I'm not so sure that I am a real switch, or if I just enjoy relaxing into the role of bottom for a bit now and then. I do know it is more than just a want, that there are times I really feel a pull toward the role, but it is not so much of a need that I would suffer if it is not fulfilled immediately. The wonderful thing about this lifestyle is that there are so many opportunities to fulfill needs and wants in various ways. We can continue learning and exploring exactly who we are even when that changes over time.
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